Monday, March 26, 2007

He's so Fly

Smooth talkin stylish guy
You stay fresh and you stay fly
Swagger takes their breaths away
You get hit on everyday

Must admit you stole my heart
Feenin for you from the start
Saw what others could not see
Thought about you constantly

Whenever you would try to speak
Girls would turn the other cheek
I showed you some attention
You showed me your affection

You suddenly became mine
Girls suddenly found you fine
So up went your confidence
Along with your ignorance

Girls they want what they can;t have
Fall for it and you'll be damned
Allure of the forbidden fruit
Would change their mind once they got you

Girls they don't appreciate
A good guy when he comes their way
Trust me boy when I say
My love you cannot replace

Soo make up your mind today
Do you want to stray away
I wasn't scared to fall for you
But I will never crawl for you

Foolish pride, don't make that mistake
You cannot have and eat your cake
Go to them and you'll realize
You gave up such a good prize
You will see that you were wrong
But turn around and I'll be gone

Friday, March 2, 2007

Case of the Ex

Everything I say. Everything I do. It's never good enough for you.
You drain me and drain my soul. It's exhausting. Trying to please you. But why? I don't need you. You've done nothing for me in the long run. Sure you've gotten me a few things, done a few favors. But I had no idea you expected so much in return. Can't you do something just to be nice? Just to see me smile? No. You hate my smile. You always have. And now I have to remember to hide my smile when I'm around you.

And just when I think you've accepted me, you chose something else. Something that no longer has anything to offer you. Something I tell myself every time that it can't compare to me.
Am I wrong? I used to be so cute to me. And now I'm nothing. Now I try so hard to be accepted. You've changed me. Made me into someone that must put others down, to raise myself. Made me into someone that envies what you prefer. And for what? I get nothing.

Why do I even try to gain your acceptance? If I had it, then what? Maybe I'm just in it for the satisfaction. Maybe I would feel like I can gain someone else's acceptance, too....

I always think, Well, maybe if this was different. Maybe if I was just a little taller... Maybe...
Maybe I should blame myself. Maybe I should not judge myself through your eyes. Who are you, anyway? Why do you get to decide right from wrong, good from bad. Beautiful from ugly?

So what do I do?
I just convert intangible pain into physical pain. It's what I do best, anyway.... right?